Wild Nights

2007-12-12T01:23:13Z

Incredibly sick atm. Party nights are fun but when you see your ex, who you thought you were completely over (but learnt you weren't) making out with another girl. George told me I was insane for liking him, but he could agree with the fact that simon was very hot. But he didn't stop me from downing the drinks. which makes me hate him.

Not really but he should have stopped me from drinking. I am small ok? it means i can't take that much. I am also a dancer, so not that much excess fat. and i hadn't eaten at all that day.
so drinks didn't work that well. And I ended up smashed and am now paying for it with my head down the loo.
So, at least I know simon is over me. that's good... i mean, right?

My '07 Story

2007-12-10T10:41:20Z

I suppose people [you] are wondering why i am starting this "zone" as i am calling it.
Well, let me tell you the story of 2007 for me.
Things started out perfect. You know, the whole New Years Kiss that sparks it all? I thought my year was going to be great.
Well, my new years eve kiss turned out to be this guy Harrison who I had met and kissed previously and a [slightly tipsy] me was convinced into a date and the who 12 am kiss.
So I was pshyched.
But well, after a month of being cheated on [once more then once at the SAME party] and walking in on him with his pants around his ankles and a girl kneeling before him in the bathroom I ended it before he buckled up his belt.
so that was a bust, but i was still positive.
Even after this horrid mis-hap, I thought, you know, I'll be fine. It will be o.k. I'll just deal - it wasn't like i had much to get over.
And soon afterwards - i had a new one. Cam, he was sweet and kind. However after nothing past 1st base for 7 months, his parent's divorce, his year 12, me being "too demanding" [in his book, fyi - asking to spend more then a hour with him a week is not demanding.] and his own issues, I ended it. But not after an extra month of both of us scooting around each other with neither one have the heart to actually end it.
But you know what, I was happy when it ended. But sad too - because I felt like I had lost such a good friend.
Then, at my step-bro's party, i ended up hooking up with his best friend and super-cute Tom [did i mention taken?]. I know, just to let you know, I am not that type of girl. I do not normally do that type of thing. But Tom and I always got on, and I was sad and he was comforting me and just being a generally good guy and it just happened.
He ended up feeling as shit as i did and neither of us wanted a secret to keep so we decided to tell his girlfriend. well, he did. I wasn't there - i didn't want to risk bodily harm. but she couldn't stand that he'd hooked up with me of all people and ended it with him. (Tom's gf - Peyton - and I have a long complicated history.)
Then I come to my finally guy of the year. The only one who actually broke my heart. The only boy to ever break my heart.
His name was simon and I loved him with all my heart. More then all my heart. I loved him a heck of a lot and I had/have for a very long time. We dated in secret. a little advise. NEVER DATE ANYONE IN SECRET. it can only end bad or badder or baddest. I landed a baddest. After one month of utter happiness he ended it without so much as a blink. OVER the PHONE. that's the biggest no-no any guy can do if you ask me. and that's what he did.
and so now I have my summer of solitude, followed my year 12 of boy-free-ness.
So now I am an emotional wreck, hence why my summer is solitude.

oh and I also - here are the other guys in my life:
Dan - a.k.a the step-dad. Unofficially. Live with him on wkends.
Michael - a.k.a the step-bro. Again, Unofficially. He's one of those WWW guys who lives through his computer and doesn't know how to converse.
Dad - a.k.a The F$@%* Dick-Head who hasn't spoken to me for... hm... 10 years? and he lives less then 5 minutes away.
George - a.k.a The Best Guy-Fried who happens to be gay. My fashion advice and pure hottness.

So yeah, I shall fill you in as I go.
xoxo

Boy Free Zone

Wild Nights

My '07 Story